Dreams dreams and more dreams

I had a pregnancy dream this cycle, but it has been differant then all the rest. Of course I am hoping that this is a good thing. I usually have one pregnancy dream in the 2ww, and they are always a little weird. This one was very short and it wasn't really a dream, more like being in darkness and a feeling that I was pregnant with a boy and somehow I knew his name was Holden. I don't even know where I got that name from, I don't really particularly like it.

I have been having really vivid dreams for quite a few nights now.

Some of them have been weird in a funny way. Like there was one dream I had about 4 nights ago where I was in this ladies house who posts on babycenter and she ended up being a client. I was rooting around her bathroom cabinets looking for something ( what I don't know ) and she had Soerens favorite choclate from Germany. The woman had like a gazillion kids and I figured nobody would notice if I took some. While I was talking to her and her husband about lanterns, her husband got really upset and told me that we were late with there order, after that all the choclate fell out of my pockets and landed in front of them.

I was quite happy to wake up from that dream.

Then 2 nights ago I had one of those dreams that disturb you to the core. I don't remember all of it and I understand none of it. I was in someone elses body, a little boy's I think, who was about 8 years old. He was differant then other kids ( maybe because he was in a wheelchair, I don't remember a wheel chair , but get the feeling he was in one ) I don't remember anything else, but a horrible sense of fear, sadness, basically just horror. It wasn't sadness that this kid was in a wheel chair, it was this horrible sense that something going on was terribly wrong. I can't really describe this horrible feeling, but I still can remember it. It wasn't fear, it was something much deeper.

I woke up from that dream basically shaking and I see Soeren next to me sitting up in bed talking to himself ( I think he was saying "thats not a real black")...Anyways, yeah it was pretty creepy. I basically shoved Soeren awake because he was freaking me out. He went back to sleep, but I stayed up for 2 hours after that with this gut feeling that someone was in the room with me that wasn't my husband.

Then I think this was last night, but I kept dreaming about the words"deus ex machina" .I have no idea what this even means, but it was there, grounding itself into my head over and over again.

I usually can remember my dreams pretty well, and I do have some off the wall ones, but the past few night they have been on this new level of clarity. I feel like these dreams are telling me something. I don't usually feel that.