I went in for my blood test today.
They were pretty fast getting the results back to me. It only takk about an hour and a half.
It was negative.
I wasn't suprised. I took another HPT yesterday morning, so I knew the chances of getting a + today were a long shot. And I actually feel okay now. For me, the crazyiness are the days before af starts. I have accepted it now and am looking foward to the next cycle.
I still can't help but wonder why it didn't work. We did everything right. Sometimes I wonder if anything might still be wrong. I can't help it. I had the HSG done, but I didn't have anything really checked on my uterus. I had spotting at 9dpo this cycle. Honestly since I was taking progestrone I thought it was implantation bleeding. There was not a lot of it. I never really thought to worry about anything being wrong with my uterus. I always have such regular periods, I don't have a heavy flow, my cramps are easily cured by 2 aleve ( and even that is just on the first day).
I think that since I am still not pg, I am driving myself crazy with this thinking.
I just don't really understand how I could not be pg. I have had 4 IUI's now- 2 of them were probably not good because I wasn't ovulating good eggs. However I have done 2 cycles of IUI's ( one with clomid, one with injectibles ) where everything was great.
I'm just frusterated in a way. I don't see why IUI's are not working for us. This is our last cycle of injectibles before moving on to the really big guns: IVF. It wouldn't bother me so much if it wasn't SO much money out of pocket. I just really want IUIs to work and I don't understand why they are not. It makes me wonder with IVF, too. At first my dr.'s thought IUI's would get me pregnant, and they have yet worked. What if that happens with IVF too. There really isn't another step after IVF.
Well, I guess I have babbled on enough. I'm feeling alright now with the BFN. I guess I am just a little nervous if anything else is going on that I don't know about that could be preventing a pg.
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Timea, I'm so sorry that it didn't work. I understand you wanting to figure out what went wrong. I hope in the days to come you will find some comfort and peace. Thinking of you.
Check out Donnie's blog -- babyquestblog.blogspot.com
She had five IUI, the fifth was the charmer for her. She never had to resort to IVF.
The reproductive center lied about IVF costs. On the paperwork it says $8,000 per cycle -- but they don't include a lot of appointments in that cycle and we have now paid $20,000 out of pocket for this IVF cycle. I will never do an IVF cycle again, so I hope this works.
I've said nothing to make you feel better or provide comfort... don't give up. IF deserves a beat down, and we're the only ones who can do it.
Timea-
I'm so sorry the bpt was negative. I wish this could be easier for all of us. Hoping you do OK through the holidays, and that you begin a new cycle shortly.
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