A birth

My cousins wife had her baby today.
I'm thrilled that there is a baby in the family, but it's kinda hitting hard now that I still don't have one.
Unlike most of you ladies, I have been blessed in that I haven't been surronded too many pregnant women. One of my employees had a baby in Sept. but thats it. The youngest person in my whole extended family was 21.
My mom said that my uncle ( babies grandfather ) is so happy:) It made me really sad for a second because I know how badly she wants to be a grandmother. I'm an only child, so it's kinda all on me.

So yeah, I feel happy,and really weird and a bit jealous. Its just crazy that when she got pregnant I was already trying for 7 months. and she has her baby now and I am still nowhere.

I am going to Denver tommorow for work. It's weird, the last time I was there I was just starting to ttc. When they asked if I could come back in May I was thinking I won't be able to because I would be very pregnant or have a newborn.

Ughhhh, my whole post seems kinda depressing. I guess it's just been a stressful few days. I'm also pretty nervous about testing on Saturday. Like I said, it might still be too early, but I don't want to wait until it gets too close to the holidays.